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Artist, Writer

The vicious cycle

Posted on September 3, 2013 by pathfinder

I keep writing things.  I have all these files on my computer of things I have written and I can’t bear to post them.  It sort of mirrors a lot of the way I am feeling right now.    Both … Continue reading →

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A half a glass of water

Posted on August 22, 2013 by pathfinder

Today is my daughter’s birthday.  She and I had a discussion the other day about her birthday and her particular struggle with the fact that she is now only a year younger than her brother.   She was born three … Continue reading →

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Self talk

Posted on August 19, 2013 by pathfinder

There have been a lot of thoughts I have shuffled through lately. There are memories that are so stark and other memories that when brought to mind are difficult to believe are real.   I have to think I have … Continue reading →

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Patience for the day

Posted on August 16, 2013 by pathfinder

I feel like I should write something.  It feels like by not doing so I am letting myself down.  I’ve never figured out who it is that stands over me in my head with these expectations.  I don’t think of myself … Continue reading →

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In the face of change

Posted on July 29, 2013 by pathfinder

Change is happening all the time, all around us, with us and without us.  It pushes and pulls us.  Sometimes it seems to shove us.  At times it has happened without our notice and when we arrive upon that change … Continue reading →

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Thought for the day – forgiveness

Posted on July 24, 2013 by pathfinder

A friend posted a “poster” on her Facebook page that read: ” Forgive yourself for not knowing what you didn’t know before you learned it”.   Well that certainly covers a lot of territory. As parents who have lost a … Continue reading →

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How is the weather?

Posted on July 15, 2013 by pathfinder

It is Monday again.  As has the rest of the country we have had some intense weather.  Our’s has come in the form of rain.  Some days have been very gray.  It takes work to pull yourself out of the … Continue reading →

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the poverty of words

Posted on July 9, 2013 by pathfinder

The poverty of words to describe life now for me and my immediate family is frustrating.  There is no relief.  The descriptive words are inadequate and the words for the emotions are flimsy and diluted – a shadow of the … Continue reading →

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The Second Year

Posted on June 25, 2013 by pathfinder

Dear Son, In one week the date will mark two years that you have been gone.  Two years that I have not spoken to you or seen you or held you.  I am amazed that we have survived without you.  … Continue reading →

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Father’s Day

Posted on June 16, 2013 by pathfinder

The days pile up one by one standing waiting to be recognized for their significance and what they mark in our memory. Every day becomes a memorial day.  It is unintentional. The national holidays, the manufactured holidays all form ready … Continue reading →

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