Category Archives: Marraige

That time of year

Posted on November 29, 2018 by pathfinder

Grief has layers like an onion and quite frankly some stink more than others.   Death and life are all around me each vying for my attention. Recently a friend has suffered the death of her husband.  He was my … Continue reading →

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The sweetness

Posted on July 20, 2014 by pathfinder

Years ago while in college my son took part in a research project with a professor who was studying a certain warbler. The food the warbler eats had been identified and there was a place in the mountains near Cataloochee … Continue reading →

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Father’s Day

Posted on June 16, 2013 by pathfinder

The days pile up one by one standing waiting to be recognized for their significance and what they mark in our memory. Every day becomes a memorial day.  It is unintentional. The national holidays, the manufactured holidays all form ready … Continue reading →

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Observations revisited

Posted on May 28, 2013 by pathfinder

I am repeatedly surprised at how raw my grief is.  I have no gauge by which to measure it.  I talk with other parents who have experienced a loss.   We do not compare our feelings as such but we … Continue reading →

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A work in progress

Posted on April 30, 2013 by pathfinder

What is in it for me to try and control everything – especially people?  For the most part it leads to feelings of resentment because they won’t do what I want.  The bigger question is “why do I think I … Continue reading →

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A Few Things I’ve Learned in the 10 Years Since Jason Died

Posted on July 6, 2012 by pathfinder

A Few Things I’ve Learned in the 10 Years Since Jason Died. Not sure what my own learning curve is here – but she covers the journey very well.  Peace.

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January 16, 2012

Posted on January 17, 2012 by pathfinder

Dear Son, Your sister was home this weekend.  She came alone.  She left the dogs and your brother-in-law back at the house.  She has a renter for your apartment.  She has stamped all your books and readied them for the … Continue reading →

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greater and lesser degrees

Posted on December 29, 2011 by pathfinder

The grief attacks seem like a  sort of panic attack.   The feeling is sudden, the thoughts flood in, my son is dead.  He is really gone.  I will not see, hear or touch him again in this world.   … Continue reading →

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In All Things . . .

Posted on December 9, 2011 by pathfinder

I would rather have the pain of missing my son in my life, than to never have had him at all.  My life would not be what it is were it not for my children. They humble me with their … Continue reading →

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In the moment

Posted on December 7, 2011 by pathfinder

I’ve only had one panic attack that I know of or can remember vividly.  It happened less than a week after my son died.  I had gone to the kitchen, my husband, daughter and sister were in the den.  I … Continue reading →

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