Tag Archives: grief

Learning to Meditate – finally.

Posted on March 27, 2015 by pathfinder

    I hesitated for a moment before posting this -which is probably some sort of indication that this is something I really need to confess especially to my son.  I am exploring mindfulness and the practice of meditation to … Continue reading →

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Mourning Fog

Posted on February 20, 2015 by pathfinder

I was writing a poem for an assignment that I accepted through WordPress when one of the prompts was “fog”. When I pull up the weather sites one of the warnings that is often posted is “Morning Fog”. If it … Continue reading →

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The volume of silence

Posted on August 21, 2014 by pathfinder

The silence speaks for me these days. Dear son, I don’t know what to say anymore. Tomorrow is your sister’s birthday. Tough birthday in so many ways. She will have reached her 29th year. The anniversary of the day you … Continue reading →

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Stuck

Posted on March 2, 2014 by pathfinder

The morning sky is yellow.  Clouds silhouetted darkly like stepping stones make a path to the sun that shines just above the horizon.  Air that hints of pollen and just a whiff of woodsmoke warms in this sun.   Already we … Continue reading →

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Falafel

Posted on February 24, 2014 by pathfinder

I was in the car with my husband talking about restaurants and foods we like, I mentioned Falafel.   I like Falafel.  Our son introduced it to me.  He introduced me to a lot of foods and insisted I should like … Continue reading →

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In other words

Posted on December 30, 2013 by pathfinder

The earth has almost finished another orbit around the sun.  Somewhere people are compiling the facts about what they think were the  most important events on this little orb during that trip.   As for me and my husband we … Continue reading →

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A need for change

Posted on December 4, 2013 by pathfinder

I know I am not the only person who struggles with change.  I know people who are in their 60’s who have clothes they wore in high school.  I have seen people who have not changed the way they wear … Continue reading →

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Each in his own way

Posted on June 3, 2013 by pathfinder

Is there sin in sorrow? I cannot fathom this could be believed in Christianity since Isaiah 53 says in the foreshadow of Christ that he is a man of sorrows.  Yet in the world at times we who dwell in … Continue reading →

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Observations revisited

Posted on May 28, 2013 by pathfinder

I am repeatedly surprised at how raw my grief is.  I have no gauge by which to measure it.  I talk with other parents who have experienced a loss.   We do not compare our feelings as such but we … Continue reading →

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Telling the story

Posted on January 13, 2013 by pathfinder

When it comes to my son, my heart continues to refuse to think of him as “gone.”  It is a daily battle and sometimes just to be able to get on with the day I give in to pretending.  I … Continue reading →

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