Tag Archives: hope

End of the year inventory

Posted on December 21, 2014 by pathfinder

  My mother used to say to me that I should go to my room and imagine I could take myself apart – and do an inventory of my parts. I always was a bit confused as a child concerning … Continue reading →

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Circling Back

Posted on September 17, 2014 by pathfinder

Dear Son, I miss you so much. That seems to be the only thing to say. Five little words that describe a large part of every day. I don’t think those words adequately describe what I mean and it makes … Continue reading →

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The volume of silence

Posted on August 21, 2014 by pathfinder

The silence speaks for me these days. Dear son, I don’t know what to say anymore. Tomorrow is your sister’s birthday. Tough birthday in so many ways. She will have reached her 29th year. The anniversary of the day you … Continue reading →

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Inventory

Posted on February 18, 2013 by pathfinder

I am beginning to recognize myself for who I am in this ” now”. I feel better when I paint or work in clay or knit.  I feel like myself.  I feel like myself when I read.  I feel like … Continue reading →

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Time Well Spent

Posted on October 1, 2012 by pathfinder

Time well spent. I’ve been thinking about that phrase.  I thought about it while driving for the past two days as we returned home from our vacation in Maine.  It was the first trip I have taken in well over … Continue reading →

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Inventory

Posted on September 6, 2012 by pathfinder

  I participate in an online chat with ” the Compassionate Friends”.  We live in a small town and there is not a chapter here.  There is a chat open every night for grieving parents to meet and talk online. … Continue reading →

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Perspective

Posted on March 12, 2012 by pathfinder

I don’t know how to describe it when something clicks in a way that changes my perspective.   If it happens slowly, I do not notice.  The gradual evolving of my feelings and observations gently nudge me to think differently.  … Continue reading →

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In hope of joy

Posted on March 9, 2012 by pathfinder

Daylight savings time begins this Saturday.  Tonight is the opening reception for the artists of Blue Ridge Watermedia Society at Haywood County Arts Gallery where I will have some work on display.  If the weather permitted, potters Brant and Karen … Continue reading →

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In matters of faith

Posted on February 8, 2012 by pathfinder

There is a subtle change, or maybe it is a shift in how I feel.  Perhaps I am just getting used to the weight of this loss.  It is a part of every day, every hour.  Perhaps I am being … Continue reading →

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Dear Son

Posted on January 27, 2012 by pathfinder

Hey Babe, The weird weather here is suiting me just fine.  It seems fitting that everything should be weird , out-of-the-ordinary, atypical.  The sun is shining while all the clouds on the horizon are as dark as pitch.  There are … Continue reading →

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