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the end of the year

I have started and abandoned a number of writings this year.  The overwhelming feelings rush over me.  I loath to admit it is the fear of loosing the entire day if I dare to acknowledge out loud or at least … Continue reading

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In honor of . . .

There are situations you cannot imagine. There are circumstances even when witnessed you will not be able to understand. It is true for everyone. I have seen photos and films of war and I can not imagine how the people … Continue reading

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The volume of silence

The silence speaks for me these days. Dear son, I don’t know what to say anymore. Tomorrow is your sister’s birthday. Tough birthday in so many ways. She will have reached her 29th year. The anniversary of the day you … Continue reading

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Dear Son

Dear Son, I haven’t written much lately because, as usual I don’t know what else to say. I despise the world for going on without you. I am infuriated by the fact that people think that by saying your name … Continue reading

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If only in my dreams

I don’t have to go very far in a day to run into something that triggers sadness or pain, regret or longing. While my daughter was home for a visit we have watched some movies. It seems that there is … Continue reading

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Some days. . .

Somedays it is difficult to get out of bed, out of the chair, out from front of the t.v. , down the driveway to get the mail or think of something to eat.  Most days that feeling of difficulty, ambivalence, … Continue reading

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In the face of change

Change is happening all the time, all around us, with us and without us.  It pushes and pulls us.  Sometimes it seems to shove us.  At times it has happened without our notice and when we arrive upon that change … Continue reading

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Observations revisited

I am repeatedly surprised at how raw my grief is.  I have no gauge by which to measure it.  I talk with other parents who have experienced a loss.   We do not compare our feelings as such but we … Continue reading

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Why?

The word “why” is going to ripple through the air and through thoughts for quite a while before it settles down again like a dry leaf.  It will be kicked up again soon enough by events small and large. “Why” … Continue reading

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Defying Gravity

Dear Son, I flew.  Thats right, I flew with your sister to New York City and back.  Would you have gone with us?  I thought about it while i was there.  There were places  and things like the Metropolitan Museum, … Continue reading

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