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Times like these

Sometimes I forget important things. I forget little things very frequently. Where I laid my phone, or my watch. I find things I value in unexpected places and then I am consumed with trying to figure out why I thought … Continue reading

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the end of the year

I have started and abandoned a number of writings this year.  The overwhelming feelings rush over me.  I loath to admit it is the fear of loosing the entire day if I dare to acknowledge out loud or at least … Continue reading

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What does it taste like?

    I go out to eat.  There is something on the menu I have never seen before so feeling brave – I order it.   Everyone with me watches as the waiter places the hot plate before me.  They watch … Continue reading

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Thirty three years

You have probably had that moment when you have been very busy and the busy-ness stops. You are in a familiar place where you stand still for just that second and the familiar is surprising because of  just how familiar it … Continue reading

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In honor of . . .

There are situations you cannot imagine. There are circumstances even when witnessed you will not be able to understand. It is true for everyone. I have seen photos and films of war and I can not imagine how the people … Continue reading

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End of the year inventory

  My mother used to say to me that I should go to my room and imagine I could take myself apart – and do an inventory of my parts. I always was a bit confused as a child concerning … Continue reading

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The volume of silence

The silence speaks for me these days. Dear son, I don’t know what to say anymore. Tomorrow is your sister’s birthday. Tough birthday in so many ways. She will have reached her 29th year. The anniversary of the day you … Continue reading

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The compass

I sometimes look at old photos and the dates when they were taken and feel a jolt.  It occurs from the toes up like an electric sensation.  Just eleven months, just ten, just nine, just six, three, two, just one … Continue reading

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“less stuff”

I’ve got a lot of different trails to run down in my mind.  Having been with my sisters for a couple of days, visiting relatives and revisiting memories makes you begin to examine your perception.  It also makes you examine … Continue reading

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Slippery days

Dear Son, I’ve been slipping the past few days.  I have a “to-do” list that is mocking me.  It is easier to sit, to let the day grind by without accomplishing much. I can’t stop thinking about you. Not that … Continue reading

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