Tag Archives: God

Circling Back

Posted on September 17, 2014 by pathfinder

Dear Son, I miss you so much. That seems to be the only thing to say. Five little words that describe a large part of every day. I don’t think those words adequately describe what I mean and it makes … Continue reading →

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Blessed are

Posted on December 12, 2013 by pathfinder

I have spent every day for the past two years, five months and ten days figuring out how to make it through each of these days.  I think I have done pretty well.  I have stopped thinking about any of … Continue reading →

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Each in his own way

Posted on June 3, 2013 by pathfinder

Is there sin in sorrow? I cannot fathom this could be believed in Christianity since Isaiah 53 says in the foreshadow of Christ that he is a man of sorrows.  Yet in the world at times we who dwell in … Continue reading →

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“less stuff”

Posted on May 9, 2013 by pathfinder

I’ve got a lot of different trails to run down in my mind.  Having been with my sisters for a couple of days, visiting relatives and revisiting memories makes you begin to examine your perception.  It also makes you examine … Continue reading →

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Eleven Weeks

Posted on April 18, 2013 by pathfinder

In eleven weeks we will experience the 2nd anniversary of our son’s death.  That means we have been walking this path for ninety-three weeks.  This week others started this journey.  They are in shock. Right now they are gathering their … Continue reading →

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Man of sorrows

Posted on April 8, 2013 by pathfinder

Dear Son, I am a broken record when it comes to thoughts of you.  They cycle around and around and always come back to the same hard place.   I’m doing it, your dad is doing it, your sister is … Continue reading →

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Spring Floods

Posted on March 14, 2013 by pathfinder

The grief is rising like flood waters.  It is threatening to engulf me.  I look for my son everywhere.  There is no safe place. I am watching others.  They are in their own stream of pain and sorrow.  I see … Continue reading →

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Insecure

Posted on February 6, 2013 by pathfinder

Insecure.  Not secure.  I’ve often wondered about what we think is secure.  There are structures and machines and implements we use every day, trusting that they will work.  For the most part they do, until something happens.  A failure from … Continue reading →

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Inventory

Posted on September 6, 2012 by pathfinder

  I participate in an online chat with ” the Compassionate Friends”.  We live in a small town and there is not a chapter here.  There is a chat open every night for grieving parents to meet and talk online. … Continue reading →

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one week

Posted on June 25, 2012 by pathfinder

You might spend your days sifting through the sad details of how they died, but when the day is done you  simply miss them. You can remember the good times, and even smile perhaps laugh.  But when the laughter fades … Continue reading →

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