Tag Archives: Happiness

Todays Prompt: In Loving Memory

Posted on March 3, 2015 by pathfinder

              Dear Son, I’ve been reading and writing a lot of poetry. I escape a little sometimes with some of my thoughts, but most often I return to thoughts of you, your sister, our … Continue reading →

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Thirty three years

Posted on February 10, 2015 by pathfinder

You have probably had that moment when you have been very busy and the busy-ness stops. You are in a familiar place where you stand still for just that second and the familiar is surprising because of  just how familiar it … Continue reading →

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End of the year inventory

Posted on December 21, 2014 by pathfinder

  My mother used to say to me that I should go to my room and imagine I could take myself apart – and do an inventory of my parts. I always was a bit confused as a child concerning … Continue reading →

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In the moment

Posted on March 27, 2014 by pathfinder

We have a new puppy. In August of 2010 we got a puppy. My son had convinced me that we needed a mini Australian Shepherd. One of his friends had a mini and apparently it so impressed my son he … Continue reading →

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The compass

Posted on March 14, 2014 by pathfinder

I sometimes look at old photos and the dates when they were taken and feel a jolt.  It occurs from the toes up like an electric sensation.  Just eleven months, just ten, just nine, just six, three, two, just one … Continue reading →

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A note of thanks (every day is mother’s day)

Posted on May 18, 2012 by pathfinder

I am here at the counter again, sitting on the barstool where one of my favorite pictures was taken of you.  Your sister took it.  You are getting ready to sip your hot tea.  You look like you are just … Continue reading →

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another day

Posted on May 11, 2012 by pathfinder

Right after our son died other people who had lost children told me “your son is with you.”  I was incredulous.   He was gone.  Life was empty.  Other meaningful relationships were blunted and dulled to gray.  The world with … Continue reading →

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Better???

Posted on May 4, 2012 by pathfinder

Having grief in your life on this level is walking a path filled with land mines.   I think I am navigating my way through pretty well when wham!  one blows up in my face. I’ve been told lately by … Continue reading →

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Symbiotic Relationship

Posted on April 3, 2012 by pathfinder

Dear Son, I don’t know what to say. My head is so jumbled with thoughts and I can’t seem to sort through them.  I talk to you all the time in my head.  I think about how you might react … Continue reading →

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Perspective

Posted on March 12, 2012 by pathfinder

I don’t know how to describe it when something clicks in a way that changes my perspective.   If it happens slowly, I do not notice.  The gradual evolving of my feelings and observations gently nudge me to think differently.  … Continue reading →

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