Author Archives: pathfinder

About pathfinder

Artist, Writer, Walking wounded.

The season of reason

Posted on December 21, 2016 by pathfinder

This is the 5th Christmas season since the death of our son. Something about the numbers five, ten, fifteen and twenty and the milestones they represent taunt those of us who continue to grieve, yearn for and miss our children. … Continue reading →

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Socially acceptable

Posted on October 31, 2016 by pathfinder

  When the hard things happen in life – the failures, the losses and defeats- social media has become a spotlight that few can stand in for long. The struggle most of us already have to know the right and … Continue reading →

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Saturday, July 2nd

Posted on July 2, 2016 by pathfinder

  Dear Son, I remember distinctly July 2nd 2011. I know there are details missing, but there are details that stand out – that are burned into my brain. I have a few days that are like that – but … Continue reading →

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What does it taste like?

Posted on June 6, 2016 by pathfinder

    I go out to eat.  There is something on the menu I have never seen before so feeling brave – I order it.   Everyone with me watches as the waiter places the hot plate before me.  They watch … Continue reading →

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Each passing day

Posted on April 9, 2016 by pathfinder

  Dear son, The world is still going crazy. The government is ridiculous. People  believe crazy things and  the politicians  making crazy promises and I apologize to you. I apologize about some of the things you used to ask me … Continue reading →

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Anger

Posted on February 17, 2016 by pathfinder

Thanksgiving, Christmas, New Years and my son’s birthday have passed. The light lingers a bit longer and the globe is repeating the pattern that slowly guides us into Spring. The year that was 2015 brought about good changes for some … Continue reading →

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Surviving the New Year

Posted on January 1, 2016 by pathfinder

  I always thought it odd when reading an obituary or when one was read at a funeral that “survivors” were listed. Survived by Uncle, Aunt, sister, brother, wife, husband, mother, daughter, father. The event that caused the end of … Continue reading →

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lig·a·ment ˈliɡəmənt/ noun

Posted on December 29, 2015 by pathfinder

Years ago in Durham while attending an evening Ladies Bible Study the verse was read from Ephesians 4:16 “For because of Him the whole body (the church, in all its various parts), closely joined and firmly knit together by the … Continue reading →

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Leaving Home

Posted on October 26, 2015 by pathfinder

I haven’t been able to write anything to post here for some time. It is not because I don’t have things I want to say. If anything it is because I have too much I want to say and nothing … Continue reading →

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The questions of July

Posted on July 4, 2015 by pathfinder

Dear Son I am sitting here in front of the computer.  The coffee is brewing in the kitchen. The youngest pup has come to lick and wallow on me. I watch his antics and think “you would like him, must like … Continue reading →

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