Category Archives: Death

Stuck

The morning sky is yellow.  Clouds silhouetted darkly like stepping stones make a path to the sun that shines just above the horizon.  Air that hints of pollen and just a whiff of woodsmoke warms in this sun.   Already we … Continue reading

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Falafel

I was in the car with my husband talking about restaurants and foods we like, I mentioned Falafel.   I like Falafel.  Our son introduced it to me.  He introduced me to a lot of foods and insisted I should like … Continue reading

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another 365 days

Tuesday was his birthday.  I had been dreading it.  I cannot express why adequately or sort through all the feelings to find out which one fostered such dread.  I think it was the combination of the holidays lining up one … Continue reading

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The New Year

Dear Son, I don’t know what to say.  I so much want to talk to you.  What can I say? So much of our relationship was spent in sharing time and space, in observation and just being together.  The things … Continue reading

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In other words

The earth has almost finished another orbit around the sun.  Somewhere people are compiling the facts about what they think were the  most important events on this little orb during that trip.   As for me and my husband we … Continue reading

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Blessed are

I have spent every day for the past two years, five months and ten days figuring out how to make it through each of these days.  I think I have done pretty well.  I have stopped thinking about any of … Continue reading

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A need for change

I know I am not the only person who struggles with change.  I know people who are in their 60’s who have clothes they wore in high school.  I have seen people who have not changed the way they wear … Continue reading

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A reminder of the season

My son loved the products of the company Patagonia.  I think he pictured himself being like Yvon Chouinard,  leading a life of learning and exploration.  He held in common with Mr. Chouinard  the love of climbing, environmentalism and falconry.  Mr. … Continue reading

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turning leaves like pages

Dear Son, Fall took its time this year.  It teased us a little with a gold here and a red there until early November before it popped.  Last night the cold shriveled the remaining leaves and in the next day … Continue reading

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Sorting

Fall has officially wrapped its coat of many colors over the shoulders of these mountains.  Today is a gray day -which to me, always makes the oranges, reds and yellows pop.   I don’t know if the “leaf-ers” as they … Continue reading

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