Category Archives: Death

Dear Son – Fall is Here

Posted on November 12, 2014 by pathfinder

Dear Son, The fall is here, the year is coming to an end. Again Halloween butts right up against Christmas for the retailers and before they can liquidate the Halloween candy Christmas trees are crowding the isles. Time intermittently speeds … Continue reading →

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Let the horses run

Posted on October 18, 2014 by pathfinder

The persimmon’s are predicting a snowy winter. Fall is progressing in stages. Early on we were told we would have little color then they said we would have good color. Trees that should have turned already have not. Trees that … Continue reading →

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The volume of silence

Posted on August 21, 2014 by pathfinder

The silence speaks for me these days. Dear son, I don’t know what to say anymore. Tomorrow is your sister’s birthday. Tough birthday in so many ways. She will have reached her 29th year. The anniversary of the day you … Continue reading →

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July 2nd

Posted on July 2, 2014 by pathfinder

The morning fog is burning off the mountains slowly. Three years ago on this date I can remember rising early to cook bacon and fix  breakfast for the five other people in the house. My husband, his brother and wife would … Continue reading →

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Stirring dull roots

Posted on May 27, 2014 by pathfinder

Spring  has come dusting everything yellow with pollen. The mountains are covered in subtle shades of green. Flowers are blooming. The early morning is filled with the voices of birds mocking each other, exclaiming their territory or just the pure … Continue reading →

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Setting the caged bird free

Posted on May 1, 2014 by pathfinder

I am reading a book called “Codependent No More” by Melody Beattie. The book was published in 1986. I wish I had heard about it then and moreover wish I had read it. I don’t know if I could have … Continue reading →

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If only in my dreams

Posted on April 13, 2014 by pathfinder

I don’t have to go very far in a day to run into something that triggers sadness or pain, regret or longing. While my daughter was home for a visit we have watched some movies. It seems that there is … Continue reading →

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What the day affords

Posted on April 1, 2014 by pathfinder

Are you able to help the way you feel? My mother used to say “I cannot help the way I feel.” I always thought that she meant that that applied only to her. She was allowed to behave any way … Continue reading →

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In the moment

Posted on March 27, 2014 by pathfinder

We have a new puppy. In August of 2010 we got a puppy. My son had convinced me that we needed a mini Australian Shepherd. One of his friends had a mini and apparently it so impressed my son he … Continue reading →

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The compass

Posted on March 14, 2014 by pathfinder

I sometimes look at old photos and the dates when they were taken and feel a jolt.  It occurs from the toes up like an electric sensation.  Just eleven months, just ten, just nine, just six, three, two, just one … Continue reading →

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