Category Archives: Holidays

Valentine

Posted on February 14, 2012 by pathfinder

Dear Son, Every day, at times I have a running conversation with you in my head.   There are things that I would like to have your opinion about.  I miss the reinforcement you provided for me. People keep telling … Continue reading →

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Dear Son

Posted on January 27, 2012 by pathfinder

Hey Babe, The weird weather here is suiting me just fine.  It seems fitting that everything should be weird , out-of-the-ordinary, atypical.  The sun is shining while all the clouds on the horizon are as dark as pitch.  There are … Continue reading →

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resolutions

Posted on December 27, 2011 by pathfinder

One part of the holiday is over and another looms on the horizon.  The problem is that it marks with vast distinction 6 months since our son’s death on January 2nd.   Anticipation of Christmas was worse than the actual … Continue reading →

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Holiday from the holiday

Posted on December 23, 2011 by pathfinder

This is a week that cannot be written about.  I look at the screen and my mind is whirling with thoughts, none of them useful.  We are trying to superimpose old routines upon this time of the year.  They don’t … Continue reading →

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The season

Posted on December 20, 2011 by pathfinder

December 19th -It has been one of those weekends where I have been aware of my thoughts much like when you become aware of the ticking of a clock and would like for it to be quiet.  I wished for … Continue reading →

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a fable

Posted on December 16, 2011 by pathfinder

I am so tired of being sad.  I am annoyed by feelings of guilt when I am not sad.  I think I startle others when I laugh and joke, I am past startling myself.  There is a form of punishment … Continue reading →

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Pip

Posted on December 13, 2011 by pathfinder

I fasted from writing for a few days, at least from this type of writing.  I wrote short poems and a simple Christmas acrostic.  I also started trying to transcribe a journal kept by my son.   I am not … Continue reading →

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In All Things . . .

Posted on December 9, 2011 by pathfinder

I would rather have the pain of missing my son in my life, than to never have had him at all.  My life would not be what it is were it not for my children. They humble me with their … Continue reading →

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Through the magnifying glass

Posted on December 1, 2011 by pathfinder

My sister is officially retired.  She has worked all of her adult life.  She is one of those focused people who methodically go about a task and gets it done, checking it off her list.  I am married to one … Continue reading →

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Ah-ha

Posted on November 28, 2011 by pathfinder

We  had snow in the upper elevations in October.  The weather man is calling for snow mid week.   It is dreary and raining today.  I can hear the rain drops plunking on the vent for the range.  The dogs … Continue reading →

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