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a fable

I am so tired of being sad.  I am annoyed by feelings of guilt when I am not sad.  I think I startle others when I laugh and joke, I am past startling myself.  There is a form of punishment … Continue reading

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Pip

I fasted from writing for a few days, at least from this type of writing.  I wrote short poems and a simple Christmas acrostic.  I also started trying to transcribe a journal kept by my son.   I am not … Continue reading

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In All Things . . .

I would rather have the pain of missing my son in my life, than to never have had him at all.  My life would not be what it is were it not for my children. They humble me with their … Continue reading

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In the moment

I’ve only had one panic attack that I know of or can remember vividly.  It happened less than a week after my son died.  I had gone to the kitchen, my husband, daughter and sister were in the den.  I … Continue reading

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Life among the living

Gray the day wet with rain fog wrapped and dripping a heavy hand. The process to be worked the step by step by step the small pool of light right there at your feet all that  can be seen. Misunderstood … Continue reading

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Dear Son,

I can’t find the right words to describe this process.  Sometimes it is like being in a vehicle going 150 mph, the world seems to be flashing past and I can’t focus on it anymore.  I wake up and it … Continue reading

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A little hike

Went on a little hike today, up where we have hiked a lot, at the end of our road. I have hiked it with my husband, and with some other friends.  I have hiked it with my daughter and my … Continue reading

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December 2, 2011

I have gone blank this morning.  It is December the 2nd.  Officially five months. Yesterday, for whatever reason, I did not end up in tears until the end of the day, in bed.  It is like I cannot go to … Continue reading

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Through the magnifying glass

My sister is officially retired.  She has worked all of her adult life.  She is one of those focused people who methodically go about a task and gets it done, checking it off her list.  I am married to one … Continue reading

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An open letter

Dear Son, I watched a video clip of you last night that you sister had taken in 2007.  You were laughing and rubbing your head, messing up your hair as you so often did.  Your dog came and sweetly attacked … Continue reading

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