Category Archives: Holidays

July 2nd

The morning fog is burning off the mountains slowly. Three years ago on this date I can remember rising early to cook bacon and fix  breakfast for the five other people in the house. My husband, his brother and wife would … Continue reading

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Dear Son

Dear Son, I haven’t written much lately because, as usual I don’t know what else to say. I despise the world for going on without you. I am infuriated by the fact that people think that by saying your name … Continue reading

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Stirring dull roots

Spring  has come dusting everything yellow with pollen. The mountains are covered in subtle shades of green. Flowers are blooming. The early morning is filled with the voices of birds mocking each other, exclaiming their territory or just the pure … Continue reading

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Room to grow

The  new puppy has been, up to now, easier to care for than my older Miniature Australian Shepherd was as a pup. I credit the older Shepherd and my Pomeranian for part of this. I also credit my son and … Continue reading

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another 365 days

Tuesday was his birthday.  I had been dreading it.  I cannot express why adequately or sort through all the feelings to find out which one fostered such dread.  I think it was the combination of the holidays lining up one … Continue reading

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The New Year

Dear Son, I don’t know what to say.  I so much want to talk to you.  What can I say? So much of our relationship was spent in sharing time and space, in observation and just being together.  The things … Continue reading

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In other words

The earth has almost finished another orbit around the sun.  Somewhere people are compiling the facts about what they think were the  most important events on this little orb during that trip.   As for me and my husband we … Continue reading

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Blessed are

I have spent every day for the past two years, five months and ten days figuring out how to make it through each of these days.  I think I have done pretty well.  I have stopped thinking about any of … Continue reading

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A need for change

I know I am not the only person who struggles with change.  I know people who are in their 60’s who have clothes they wore in high school.  I have seen people who have not changed the way they wear … Continue reading

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A reminder of the season

My son loved the products of the company Patagonia.  I think he pictured himself being like Yvon Chouinard,  leading a life of learning and exploration.  He held in common with Mr. Chouinard  the love of climbing, environmentalism and falconry.  Mr. … Continue reading

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