Tag Archives: grief

In matters of faith

Posted on February 8, 2012 by pathfinder

There is a subtle change, or maybe it is a shift in how I feel.  Perhaps I am just getting used to the weight of this loss.  It is a part of every day, every hour.  Perhaps I am being … Continue reading →

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time relentless passing

Posted on January 14, 2012 by pathfinder

the fingers must relax their grip held for so long bent in that shape tension held meant not to crush rather to embrace not willing to relinquish to forgotten pockets the precious hard won relics   shocking the revelation vivid … Continue reading →

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The rocking chair named worry

Posted on January 12, 2012 by pathfinder

Do you remember the day last year when that man predicted the world would end? The radio and television hosts had a field day with it.  I wondered if some of them were whistling in the dark. I remember it … Continue reading →

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Sorting

Posted on January 11, 2012 by pathfinder

It was not long after our son died that my husband went back to work. My husband is a hard working man. When he is “off” he still finds something to occupy his time. Our yard is well groomed. There … Continue reading →

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Popcorn

Posted on January 3, 2012 by pathfinder

  I am an old movie fan, having watched the late late show when I was a pre-teen and allowed to stay up on Friday and Saturday night provided I got up early enough in the morning.  I fell in love with … Continue reading →

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resolutions

Posted on December 27, 2011 by pathfinder

One part of the holiday is over and another looms on the horizon.  The problem is that it marks with vast distinction 6 months since our son’s death on January 2nd.   Anticipation of Christmas was worse than the actual … Continue reading →

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Holiday from the holiday

Posted on December 23, 2011 by pathfinder

This is a week that cannot be written about.  I look at the screen and my mind is whirling with thoughts, none of them useful.  We are trying to superimpose old routines upon this time of the year.  They don’t … Continue reading →

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In the moment

Posted on December 7, 2011 by pathfinder

I’ve only had one panic attack that I know of or can remember vividly.  It happened less than a week after my son died.  I had gone to the kitchen, my husband, daughter and sister were in the den.  I … Continue reading →

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Dear Son,

Posted on December 5, 2011 by pathfinder

I can’t find the right words to describe this process.  Sometimes it is like being in a vehicle going 150 mph, the world seems to be flashing past and I can’t focus on it anymore.  I wake up and it … Continue reading →

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December 2, 2011

Posted on December 2, 2011 by pathfinder

I have gone blank this morning.  It is December the 2nd.  Officially five months. Yesterday, for whatever reason, I did not end up in tears until the end of the day, in bed.  It is like I cannot go to … Continue reading →

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