Tag Archives: Relationships

Circling Back

Posted on September 17, 2014 by pathfinder

Dear Son, I miss you so much. That seems to be the only thing to say. Five little words that describe a large part of every day. I don’t think those words adequately describe what I mean and it makes … Continue reading →

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The volume of silence

Posted on August 21, 2014 by pathfinder

The silence speaks for me these days. Dear son, I don’t know what to say anymore. Tomorrow is your sister’s birthday. Tough birthday in so many ways. She will have reached her 29th year. The anniversary of the day you … Continue reading →

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July 2nd

Posted on July 2, 2014 by pathfinder

The morning fog is burning off the mountains slowly. Three years ago on this date I can remember rising early to cook bacon and fix  breakfast for the five other people in the house. My husband, his brother and wife would … Continue reading →

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If only in my dreams

Posted on April 13, 2014 by pathfinder

I don’t have to go very far in a day to run into something that triggers sadness or pain, regret or longing. While my daughter was home for a visit we have watched some movies. It seems that there is … Continue reading →

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another 365 days

Posted on February 7, 2014 by pathfinder

Tuesday was his birthday.  I had been dreading it.  I cannot express why adequately or sort through all the feelings to find out which one fostered such dread.  I think it was the combination of the holidays lining up one … Continue reading →

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Sorting

Posted on November 1, 2013 by pathfinder

Fall has officially wrapped its coat of many colors over the shoulders of these mountains.  Today is a gray day -which to me, always makes the oranges, reds and yellows pop.   I don’t know if the “leaf-ers” as they … Continue reading →

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Inventory

Posted on February 18, 2013 by pathfinder

I am beginning to recognize myself for who I am in this ” now”. I feel better when I paint or work in clay or knit.  I feel like myself.  I feel like myself when I read.  I feel like … Continue reading →

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For the Better

Posted on November 11, 2012 by pathfinder

I’ve been to New York City with my daughter.  I have thought so often about writing all week, but I decided to abstain for a while just to see how it felt.  I went to New York City to see … Continue reading →

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Time Well Spent

Posted on October 1, 2012 by pathfinder

Time well spent. I’ve been thinking about that phrase.  I thought about it while driving for the past two days as we returned home from our vacation in Maine.  It was the first trip I have taken in well over … Continue reading →

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Acadia

Posted on September 24, 2012 by pathfinder

The dogs are up even earlier here on the coast of Maine.  The sun rises an hour earlier than it does at home, and stranger yet they seem to prefer 5:30 a.m. to begin their day.  The first day here … Continue reading →

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