Monthly Archives: October 2011

Unexpected Showers

Life is exhausting for us in the most unexpected ways.  My daughter is in town for a shower in honor of her upcoming wedding.  She is almost giddy with excitement over the upcoming event.   The shower occurred on Saturday … Continue reading

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the quilt

The days are beginning to resemble a patchwork quilt, stitched together loosely here and tightly there.   There are bright days and dark days, tears that begin in sorrow and end in laughter and the shake of a head.  Words … Continue reading

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The way West

The summer was too dry and sunny this year.  Today it is raining and gray and it suits me.  I remember the only complaint my son ever had about Colorado when he lived there,  was that there were not enough … Continue reading

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Gaining the Summit

I  looked up “survivor’s guilt” to see just what it meant.  There are a list of symptoms that together sound pretty ominous.   I have had a few of those feelings though I think mine are mainly attached to a … Continue reading

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Roads go ever ever on

              Roads go ever ever on, Over rock and under tree, By caves where never sun has shone, By streams that never find the sea; Over snow by winter sown, And through the merry … Continue reading

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Peeling an onion

    I was asked this weekend, “why are you crying?”  The person asking me was a good friend, and well aware of the circumstances of the past few months.   What was not clear to them, from their perspective is … Continue reading

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What remains

Words fail thoughts falter time relentless paces on. Memories come some unbidden shoulders  turn away once offered to be cried upon. Grief has a timetable for those not grieving the sadness too much weight for the un-bereaved. The awful truth … Continue reading

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Bittersweet joy

Memory is a faulty thing.  We can take out our polish and make them very shiny indeed.  Were we able to actually actively revisit them, I am afraid we might find them less wonderful than we have made them.  Maybe … Continue reading

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Enough for now.

Monday has come again.  It was a busy Monday for me with errands and  business to do.  A good friend met me and helped me with the transport of some paintings from one gallery to another.  The company of others … Continue reading

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First things first

I remember when I thought I might be pregnant.  I worked in the OB-Gyn Clinic at a large hospital and one of my nurse friends said she would do the pregnancy test.   I was on the phone in my … Continue reading

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