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Room to grow

Posted on April 21, 2014 by pathfinder

The  new puppy has been, up to now, easier to care for than my older Miniature Australian Shepherd was as a pup. I credit the older Shepherd and my Pomeranian for part of this. I also credit my son and … Continue reading →

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If only in my dreams

Posted on April 13, 2014 by pathfinder

I don’t have to go very far in a day to run into something that triggers sadness or pain, regret or longing. While my daughter was home for a visit we have watched some movies. It seems that there is … Continue reading →

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What the day affords

Posted on April 1, 2014 by pathfinder

Are you able to help the way you feel? My mother used to say “I cannot help the way I feel.” I always thought that she meant that that applied only to her. She was allowed to behave any way … Continue reading →

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In the moment

Posted on March 27, 2014 by pathfinder

We have a new puppy. In August of 2010 we got a puppy. My son had convinced me that we needed a mini Australian Shepherd. One of his friends had a mini and apparently it so impressed my son he … Continue reading →

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The compass

Posted on March 14, 2014 by pathfinder

I sometimes look at old photos and the dates when they were taken and feel a jolt.  It occurs from the toes up like an electric sensation.  Just eleven months, just ten, just nine, just six, three, two, just one … Continue reading →

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Stuck

Posted on March 2, 2014 by pathfinder

The morning sky is yellow.  Clouds silhouetted darkly like stepping stones make a path to the sun that shines just above the horizon.  Air that hints of pollen and just a whiff of woodsmoke warms in this sun.   Already we … Continue reading →

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Falafel

Posted on February 24, 2014 by pathfinder

I was in the car with my husband talking about restaurants and foods we like, I mentioned Falafel.   I like Falafel.  Our son introduced it to me.  He introduced me to a lot of foods and insisted I should like … Continue reading →

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another 365 days

Posted on February 7, 2014 by pathfinder

Tuesday was his birthday.  I had been dreading it.  I cannot express why adequately or sort through all the feelings to find out which one fostered such dread.  I think it was the combination of the holidays lining up one … Continue reading →

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The “W” word

Posted on January 24, 2014 by pathfinder

In less than two weeks is the 32nd anniversary of our son’s birth.   That February in 1982 was cold and snowy.  We lived in a little house in Chatham County where the wind blew through the beaded board and … Continue reading →

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The New Year

Posted on January 10, 2014 by pathfinder

Dear Son, I don’t know what to say.  I so much want to talk to you.  What can I say? So much of our relationship was spent in sharing time and space, in observation and just being together.  The things … Continue reading →

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