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About pathfinder

Artist, Writer

June 2011

Posted on June 14, 2013 by pathfinder

This was our last hike together.  We were at Panthertown (http://panthertown.org).  The wind had ripped up the oak tree in our front yard and the power was off so we vacated the house and took the dogs for a hike. … Continue reading →

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Each in his own way

Posted on June 3, 2013 by pathfinder

Is there sin in sorrow? I cannot fathom this could be believed in Christianity since Isaiah 53 says in the foreshadow of Christ that he is a man of sorrows.  Yet in the world at times we who dwell in … Continue reading →

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Observations revisited

Posted on May 28, 2013 by pathfinder

I am repeatedly surprised at how raw my grief is.  I have no gauge by which to measure it.  I talk with other parents who have experienced a loss.   We do not compare our feelings as such but we … Continue reading →

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“less stuff”

Posted on May 9, 2013 by pathfinder

I’ve got a lot of different trails to run down in my mind.  Having been with my sisters for a couple of days, visiting relatives and revisiting memories makes you begin to examine your perception.  It also makes you examine … Continue reading →

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A work in progress

Posted on April 30, 2013 by pathfinder

What is in it for me to try and control everything – especially people?  For the most part it leads to feelings of resentment because they won’t do what I want.  The bigger question is “why do I think I … Continue reading →

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Eleven Weeks

Posted on April 18, 2013 by pathfinder

In eleven weeks we will experience the 2nd anniversary of our son’s death.  That means we have been walking this path for ninety-three weeks.  This week others started this journey.  They are in shock. Right now they are gathering their … Continue reading →

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Man of sorrows

Posted on April 8, 2013 by pathfinder

Dear Son, I am a broken record when it comes to thoughts of you.  They cycle around and around and always come back to the same hard place.   I’m doing it, your dad is doing it, your sister is … Continue reading →

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Circling back

Posted on March 25, 2013 by pathfinder

  The footprint of every day leaves a deep impression on my heart. Strangely, paradoxically, when I turn to see where I have been the events of each passing 24 hours has disappeared, no trace.         I … Continue reading →

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Spring Floods

Posted on March 14, 2013 by pathfinder

The grief is rising like flood waters.  It is threatening to engulf me.  I look for my son everywhere.  There is no safe place. I am watching others.  They are in their own stream of pain and sorrow.  I see … Continue reading →

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Softer Days

Posted on March 1, 2013 by pathfinder

  I am in search of a soft day  where I land easy where the morning is warm that my heart fills with light where promise comes in a whisper of hope   I wake to the day and look … Continue reading →

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