Category Archives: Coping with the Death of a Child

Dear Son – Fall is Here

Posted on November 12, 2014 by pathfinder

Dear Son, The fall is here, the year is coming to an end. Again Halloween butts right up against Christmas for the retailers and before they can liquidate the Halloween candy Christmas trees are crowding the isles. Time intermittently speeds … Continue reading →

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Let the horses run

Posted on October 18, 2014 by pathfinder

The persimmon’s are predicting a snowy winter. Fall is progressing in stages. Early on we were told we would have little color then they said we would have good color. Trees that should have turned already have not. Trees that … Continue reading →

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Circling Back

Posted on September 17, 2014 by pathfinder

Dear Son, I miss you so much. That seems to be the only thing to say. Five little words that describe a large part of every day. I don’t think those words adequately describe what I mean and it makes … Continue reading →

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The volume of silence

Posted on August 21, 2014 by pathfinder

The silence speaks for me these days. Dear son, I don’t know what to say anymore. Tomorrow is your sister’s birthday. Tough birthday in so many ways. She will have reached her 29th year. The anniversary of the day you … Continue reading →

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The sweetness

Posted on July 20, 2014 by pathfinder

Years ago while in college my son took part in a research project with a professor who was studying a certain warbler. The food the warbler eats had been identified and there was a place in the mountains near Cataloochee … Continue reading →

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July 2nd

Posted on July 2, 2014 by pathfinder

The morning fog is burning off the mountains slowly. Three years ago on this date I can remember rising early to cook bacon and fix  breakfast for the five other people in the house. My husband, his brother and wife would … Continue reading →

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Being Broken

Posted on June 22, 2014 by pathfinder

Being Broken. Some part of me will always expect her. Some part of me will always assume reunion will occur. I will always look for her, wait for her, want her.  Make that her him.  Amen.

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Dear Son

Posted on June 18, 2014 by pathfinder

Dear Son, I haven’t written much lately because, as usual I don’t know what else to say. I despise the world for going on without you. I am infuriated by the fact that people think that by saying your name … Continue reading →

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Stirring dull roots

Posted on May 27, 2014 by pathfinder

Spring  has come dusting everything yellow with pollen. The mountains are covered in subtle shades of green. Flowers are blooming. The early morning is filled with the voices of birds mocking each other, exclaiming their territory or just the pure … Continue reading →

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Setting the caged bird free

Posted on May 1, 2014 by pathfinder

I am reading a book called “Codependent No More” by Melody Beattie. The book was published in 1986. I wish I had heard about it then and moreover wish I had read it. I don’t know if I could have … Continue reading →

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