Category Archives: Death

Binding and Loosing

Posted on May 25, 2012 by pathfinder

Sweetheart, There is a nest of baby birds chirping in the garage again.  House wrens love that space.  Because we leave the door open to the garage the birds take advantage of that area.  It never gets terribly hot and … Continue reading →

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A note of thanks (every day is mother’s day)

Posted on May 18, 2012 by pathfinder

I am here at the counter again, sitting on the barstool where one of my favorite pictures was taken of you.  Your sister took it.  You are getting ready to sip your hot tea.  You look like you are just … Continue reading →

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another day

Posted on May 11, 2012 by pathfinder

Right after our son died other people who had lost children told me “your son is with you.”  I was incredulous.   He was gone.  Life was empty.  Other meaningful relationships were blunted and dulled to gray.  The world with … Continue reading →

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Better???

Posted on May 4, 2012 by pathfinder

Having grief in your life on this level is walking a path filled with land mines.   I think I am navigating my way through pretty well when wham!  one blows up in my face. I’ve been told lately by … Continue reading →

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Collecting

Posted on May 1, 2012 by pathfinder

Hey Babe, It is Tuesday and I’ve been busy with all the business life throws at me.  I know why you hiked and went into the woods so often.  It was to escape all the clutter of things in this … Continue reading →

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Small comforts

Posted on April 17, 2012 by pathfinder

Dear Son, In the silence of this house, when I am by myself the question “why” comes up a lot.  I don’t ask others to share in providing an answer, because I fear their responses.  Some say it was your … Continue reading →

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I’ll take my chances

Posted on April 11, 2012 by pathfinder

April arrived in full bloom.  Now some ten days into the month we are being threatened with frost and freezing temperatures at night.  There is a threat of freezing weather for the next few nights.  The plants that should be … Continue reading →

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Symbiotic Relationship

Posted on April 3, 2012 by pathfinder

Dear Son, I don’t know what to say. My head is so jumbled with thoughts and I can’t seem to sort through them.  I talk to you all the time in my head.  I think about how you might react … Continue reading →

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Changing Seasons

Posted on March 26, 2012 by pathfinder

Dear Son, I am typing on your wireless keyboard.  It is tough for your dad and I to use any of your things.  I feel like I am borrowing them.  I guess we are, all of us just borrowing things … Continue reading →

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Broken record

Posted on March 14, 2012 by pathfinder

There is so much to say about our child, how we feel, what we miss, but we have a limited vocabulary with which to express it.  That must be part of the reason we build memorials, run marathons, ride in … Continue reading →

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