Category Archives: Family

A day of remembrance – Dec. 14th

Posted on December 12, 2014 by pathfinder

I am a painter, an artist, a creative problem solver. I don’t remember thinking “I want to be an artist” I only remember drawing, painting, building – doing. How you establish credibility as an artist is another thing and like … Continue reading →

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Most Wonderful Time of the Year?

Posted on December 5, 2014 by pathfinder

As of late I have been reading more about other parents struggles than writing about my own. It is not necessarily comforting although it does help a little to know that I am not alone. Grief for a beloved child … Continue reading →

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Dear Son – Fall is Here

Posted on November 12, 2014 by pathfinder

Dear Son, The fall is here, the year is coming to an end. Again Halloween butts right up against Christmas for the retailers and before they can liquidate the Halloween candy Christmas trees are crowding the isles. Time intermittently speeds … Continue reading →

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Let the horses run

Posted on October 18, 2014 by pathfinder

The persimmon’s are predicting a snowy winter. Fall is progressing in stages. Early on we were told we would have little color then they said we would have good color. Trees that should have turned already have not. Trees that … Continue reading →

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Circling Back

Posted on September 17, 2014 by pathfinder

Dear Son, I miss you so much. That seems to be the only thing to say. Five little words that describe a large part of every day. I don’t think those words adequately describe what I mean and it makes … Continue reading →

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The volume of silence

Posted on August 21, 2014 by pathfinder

The silence speaks for me these days. Dear son, I don’t know what to say anymore. Tomorrow is your sister’s birthday. Tough birthday in so many ways. She will have reached her 29th year. The anniversary of the day you … Continue reading →

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July 2nd

Posted on July 2, 2014 by pathfinder

The morning fog is burning off the mountains slowly. Three years ago on this date I can remember rising early to cook bacon and fix  breakfast for the five other people in the house. My husband, his brother and wife would … Continue reading →

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Dear Son

Posted on June 18, 2014 by pathfinder

Dear Son, I haven’t written much lately because, as usual I don’t know what else to say. I despise the world for going on without you. I am infuriated by the fact that people think that by saying your name … Continue reading →

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Room to grow

Posted on April 21, 2014 by pathfinder

The  new puppy has been, up to now, easier to care for than my older Miniature Australian Shepherd was as a pup. I credit the older Shepherd and my Pomeranian for part of this. I also credit my son and … Continue reading →

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The compass

Posted on March 14, 2014 by pathfinder

I sometimes look at old photos and the dates when they were taken and feel a jolt.  It occurs from the toes up like an electric sensation.  Just eleven months, just ten, just nine, just six, three, two, just one … Continue reading →

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