Category Archives: Family

Small comforts

Posted on April 17, 2012 by pathfinder

Dear Son, In the silence of this house, when I am by myself the question “why” comes up a lot.  I don’t ask others to share in providing an answer, because I fear their responses.  Some say it was your … Continue reading →

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I’ll take my chances

Posted on April 11, 2012 by pathfinder

April arrived in full bloom.  Now some ten days into the month we are being threatened with frost and freezing temperatures at night.  There is a threat of freezing weather for the next few nights.  The plants that should be … Continue reading →

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Changing Seasons

Posted on March 26, 2012 by pathfinder

Dear Son, I am typing on your wireless keyboard.  It is tough for your dad and I to use any of your things.  I feel like I am borrowing them.  I guess we are, all of us just borrowing things … Continue reading →

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Among whom I used to dwell

Posted on March 20, 2012 by pathfinder

I confessed to one of my friends yesterday that I missed the simpler, more thoughtless days.  I was talking about matters of faith and ideas about God, but the fact is ,it is true about my entire life.  You do … Continue reading →

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Broken record

Posted on March 14, 2012 by pathfinder

There is so much to say about our child, how we feel, what we miss, but we have a limited vocabulary with which to express it.  That must be part of the reason we build memorials, run marathons, ride in … Continue reading →

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Perspective

Posted on March 12, 2012 by pathfinder

I don’t know how to describe it when something clicks in a way that changes my perspective.   If it happens slowly, I do not notice.  The gradual evolving of my feelings and observations gently nudge me to think differently.  … Continue reading →

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In hope of joy

Posted on March 9, 2012 by pathfinder

Daylight savings time begins this Saturday.  Tonight is the opening reception for the artists of Blue Ridge Watermedia Society at Haywood County Arts Gallery where I will have some work on display.  If the weather permitted, potters Brant and Karen … Continue reading →

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Early Spring

Posted on March 2, 2012 by pathfinder

Dear Son, It has been a tough couple of weeks.  I have talked to you so much.  I am sorry if I seem to be angry at times.  I am frustrated that I can’t seem to come to grips with … Continue reading →

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Assisted Living

Posted on February 27, 2012 by pathfinder

When my dad died it was the first big loss in our family.  He had AML – Acute Myeloid Leukemia.  He refused treatment.  The disease was advanced.  I don’t know how much pain he had been in prior to diagnosis, … Continue reading →

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Missing you

Posted on February 22, 2012 by pathfinder

I’ve had a few tough nights since our son died.  Surprisingly only a few, until this week.  The past two nights have been rough.  I wake up and flash back to July 2nd.  When I do sleep,  dreams become vivid, … Continue reading →

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