Category Archives: Death

the poverty of words

Posted on July 9, 2013 by pathfinder

The poverty of words to describe life now for me and my immediate family is frustrating.  There is no relief.  The descriptive words are inadequate and the words for the emotions are flimsy and diluted – a shadow of the … Continue reading →

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The Second Year

Posted on June 25, 2013 by pathfinder

Dear Son, In one week the date will mark two years that you have been gone.  Two years that I have not spoken to you or seen you or held you.  I am amazed that we have survived without you.  … Continue reading →

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Each in his own way

Posted on June 3, 2013 by pathfinder

Is there sin in sorrow? I cannot fathom this could be believed in Christianity since Isaiah 53 says in the foreshadow of Christ that he is a man of sorrows.  Yet in the world at times we who dwell in … Continue reading →

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Observations revisited

Posted on May 28, 2013 by pathfinder

I am repeatedly surprised at how raw my grief is.  I have no gauge by which to measure it.  I talk with other parents who have experienced a loss.   We do not compare our feelings as such but we … Continue reading →

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“less stuff”

Posted on May 9, 2013 by pathfinder

I’ve got a lot of different trails to run down in my mind.  Having been with my sisters for a couple of days, visiting relatives and revisiting memories makes you begin to examine your perception.  It also makes you examine … Continue reading →

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A work in progress

Posted on April 30, 2013 by pathfinder

What is in it for me to try and control everything – especially people?  For the most part it leads to feelings of resentment because they won’t do what I want.  The bigger question is “why do I think I … Continue reading →

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Eleven Weeks

Posted on April 18, 2013 by pathfinder

In eleven weeks we will experience the 2nd anniversary of our son’s death.  That means we have been walking this path for ninety-three weeks.  This week others started this journey.  They are in shock. Right now they are gathering their … Continue reading →

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Spring Floods

Posted on March 14, 2013 by pathfinder

The grief is rising like flood waters.  It is threatening to engulf me.  I look for my son everywhere.  There is no safe place. I am watching others.  They are in their own stream of pain and sorrow.  I see … Continue reading →

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Inventory

Posted on February 18, 2013 by pathfinder

I am beginning to recognize myself for who I am in this ” now”. I feel better when I paint or work in clay or knit.  I feel like myself.  I feel like myself when I read.  I feel like … Continue reading →

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Slippery days

Posted on February 13, 2013 by pathfinder

Dear Son, I’ve been slipping the past few days.  I have a “to-do” list that is mocking me.  It is easier to sit, to let the day grind by without accomplishing much. I can’t stop thinking about you. Not that … Continue reading →

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