Category Archives: Friends

Let the horses run

The persimmon’s are predicting a snowy winter. Fall is progressing in stages. Early on we were told we would have little color then they said we would have good color. Trees that should have turned already have not. Trees that … Continue reading

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Circling Back

Dear Son, I miss you so much. That seems to be the only thing to say. Five little words that describe a large part of every day. I don’t think those words adequately describe what I mean and it makes … Continue reading

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July 2nd

The morning fog is burning off the mountains slowly. Three years ago on this date I can remember rising early to cook bacon and fix  breakfast for the five other people in the house. My husband, his brother and wife would … Continue reading

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Dear Son

Dear Son, I haven’t written much lately because, as usual I don’t know what else to say. I despise the world for going on without you. I am infuriated by the fact that people think that by saying your name … Continue reading

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Stirring dull roots

Spring  has come dusting everything yellow with pollen. The mountains are covered in subtle shades of green. Flowers are blooming. The early morning is filled with the voices of birds mocking each other, exclaiming their territory or just the pure … Continue reading

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If only in my dreams

I don’t have to go very far in a day to run into something that triggers sadness or pain, regret or longing. While my daughter was home for a visit we have watched some movies. It seems that there is … Continue reading

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The compass

I sometimes look at old photos and the dates when they were taken and feel a jolt.  It occurs from the toes up like an electric sensation.  Just eleven months, just ten, just nine, just six, three, two, just one … Continue reading

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The “W” word

In less than two weeks is the 32nd anniversary of our son’s birth.   That February in 1982 was cold and snowy.  We lived in a little house in Chatham County where the wind blew through the beaded board and … Continue reading

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The New Year

Dear Son, I don’t know what to say.  I so much want to talk to you.  What can I say? So much of our relationship was spent in sharing time and space, in observation and just being together.  The things … Continue reading

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In other words

The earth has almost finished another orbit around the sun.  Somewhere people are compiling the facts about what they think were the  most important events on this little orb during that trip.   As for me and my husband we … Continue reading

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