Tag Archives: joy

In the New Year

Posted on January 9, 2012 by pathfinder

Dear Son, I have to tell you that this is the hardest thing I have ever had to learn to do, figuring out how to continue on without you.  It has no precedent.   I cannot compare it to anything … Continue reading →

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An unexpected gift

Posted on December 17, 2011 by pathfinder

A friend of mine and fellow artist showed me one of her paintings that will be featured in a show this Spring.  The vantage point was from above looking down on a street somewhere in Europe.  The street arches away … Continue reading →

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a fable

Posted on December 16, 2011 by pathfinder

I am so tired of being sad.  I am annoyed by feelings of guilt when I am not sad.  I think I startle others when I laugh and joke, I am past startling myself.  There is a form of punishment … Continue reading →

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Pip

Posted on December 13, 2011 by pathfinder

I fasted from writing for a few days, at least from this type of writing.  I wrote short poems and a simple Christmas acrostic.  I also started trying to transcribe a journal kept by my son.   I am not … Continue reading →

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In All Things . . .

Posted on December 9, 2011 by pathfinder

I would rather have the pain of missing my son in my life, than to never have had him at all.  My life would not be what it is were it not for my children. They humble me with their … Continue reading →

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Life among the living

Posted on December 6, 2011 by pathfinder

Gray the day wet with rain fog wrapped and dripping a heavy hand. The process to be worked the step by step by step the small pool of light right there at your feet all that  can be seen. Misunderstood … Continue reading →

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Dear Son,

Posted on December 5, 2011 by pathfinder

I can’t find the right words to describe this process.  Sometimes it is like being in a vehicle going 150 mph, the world seems to be flashing past and I can’t focus on it anymore.  I wake up and it … Continue reading →

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A little hike

Posted on December 3, 2011 by pathfinder

Went on a little hike today, up where we have hiked a lot, at the end of our road. I have hiked it with my husband, and with some other friends.  I have hiked it with my daughter and my … Continue reading →

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If

Posted on November 29, 2011 by pathfinder

If can be a conjunction or a noun.  I really don’t want it to have any more space or time in my vocabulary for now.   Not that avoiding it changes anything, but a lot of my intrusive thoughts start … Continue reading →

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Simple Gifts.

Posted on November 23, 2011 by pathfinder

Simple gifts, I have received a grateful heart, a desire to believe, in the Spirit of God, in the spirit of man, in the hope of peace from a proffered hand.   Love from a husband. Love from a child. … Continue reading →

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