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About pathfinder

Artist, Writer

Belonging

Posted on February 25, 2013 by pathfinder

Dear Son, I had a great day yesterday.  The sun was shining and the temperature warmed into the 50’s.         It was good to go to church to be with the family.  It may sound cold to … Continue reading →

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Inventory

Posted on February 18, 2013 by pathfinder

I am beginning to recognize myself for who I am in this ” now”. I feel better when I paint or work in clay or knit.  I feel like myself.  I feel like myself when I read.  I feel like … Continue reading →

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Slippery days

Posted on February 13, 2013 by pathfinder

Dear Son, I’ve been slipping the past few days.  I have a “to-do” list that is mocking me.  It is easier to sit, to let the day grind by without accomplishing much. I can’t stop thinking about you. Not that … Continue reading →

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Insecure

Posted on February 6, 2013 by pathfinder

Insecure.  Not secure.  I’ve often wondered about what we think is secure.  There are structures and machines and implements we use every day, trusting that they will work.  For the most part they do, until something happens.  A failure from … Continue reading →

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The Day Begins . . .

Posted on January 30, 2013 by pathfinder

  The day begins. Before the sun rises the dogs and I go outside. We go to the kitchen where I put on the kettle, find the box of oatmeal, prepare the vacuum brewer for the coffee. The dogs are … Continue reading →

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Fear and Trembling

Posted on January 23, 2013 by pathfinder

I am reacting to a post on Facebook that kept me up last night and now consumes the morning.  A person who received a transplant is rejecting the organ and prayers on that person’s behalf are being asked for God … Continue reading →

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Telling the story

Posted on January 13, 2013 by pathfinder

When it comes to my son, my heart continues to refuse to think of him as “gone.”  It is a daily battle and sometimes just to be able to get on with the day I give in to pretending.  I … Continue reading →

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Condolences to the families in Newtown Connecticut

Posted on December 28, 2012 by pathfinder

The end of 2012 is just around the corner.  There was a lot of talk and people poking fun or maybe whistling in the dark about the Mayan Calendar.  It hasn’t been that long ago that a preacher predicted the … Continue reading →

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Why?

Posted on December 16, 2012 by pathfinder

The word “why” is going to ripple through the air and through thoughts for quite a while before it settles down again like a dry leaf.  It will be kicked up again soon enough by events small and large. “Why” … Continue reading →

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