Tag Archives: coping with death

Circling Back

Dear Son, I miss you so much. That seems to be the only thing to say. Five little words that describe a large part of every day. I don’t think those words adequately describe what I mean and it makes … Continue reading

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The volume of silence

The silence speaks for me these days. Dear son, I don’t know what to say anymore. Tomorrow is your sister’s birthday. Tough birthday in so many ways. She will have reached her 29th year. The anniversary of the day you … Continue reading

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July 2nd

The morning fog is burning off the mountains slowly. Three years ago on this date I can remember rising early to cook bacon and fix  breakfast for the five other people in the house. My husband, his brother and wife would … Continue reading

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Dear Son

Dear Son, I haven’t written much lately because, as usual I don’t know what else to say. I despise the world for going on without you. I am infuriated by the fact that people think that by saying your name … Continue reading

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Setting the caged bird free

I am reading a book called “Codependent No More” by Melody Beattie. The book was published in 1986. I wish I had heard about it then and moreover wish I had read it. I don’t know if I could have … Continue reading

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Room to grow

The  new puppy has been, up to now, easier to care for than my older Miniature Australian Shepherd was as a pup. I credit the older Shepherd and my Pomeranian for part of this. I also credit my son and … Continue reading

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If only in my dreams

I don’t have to go very far in a day to run into something that triggers sadness or pain, regret or longing. While my daughter was home for a visit we have watched some movies. It seems that there is … Continue reading

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What the day affords

Are you able to help the way you feel? My mother used to say “I cannot help the way I feel.” I always thought that she meant that that applied only to her. She was allowed to behave any way … Continue reading

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In the moment

We have a new puppy. In August of 2010 we got a puppy. My son had convinced me that we needed a mini Australian Shepherd. One of his friends had a mini and apparently it so impressed my son he … Continue reading

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The compass

I sometimes look at old photos and the dates when they were taken and feel a jolt.  It occurs from the toes up like an electric sensation.  Just eleven months, just ten, just nine, just six, three, two, just one … Continue reading

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