Tag Archives: Grief Loss and Bereavement

Dear Son – Fall is Here

Posted on November 12, 2014 by pathfinder

Dear Son, The fall is here, the year is coming to an end. Again Halloween butts right up against Christmas for the retailers and before they can liquidate the Halloween candy Christmas trees are crowding the isles. Time intermittently speeds … Continue reading →

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Let the horses run

Posted on October 18, 2014 by pathfinder

The persimmon’s are predicting a snowy winter. Fall is progressing in stages. Early on we were told we would have little color then they said we would have good color. Trees that should have turned already have not. Trees that … Continue reading →

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Circling Back

Posted on September 17, 2014 by pathfinder

Dear Son, I miss you so much. That seems to be the only thing to say. Five little words that describe a large part of every day. I don’t think those words adequately describe what I mean and it makes … Continue reading →

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The volume of silence

Posted on August 21, 2014 by pathfinder

The silence speaks for me these days. Dear son, I don’t know what to say anymore. Tomorrow is your sister’s birthday. Tough birthday in so many ways. She will have reached her 29th year. The anniversary of the day you … Continue reading →

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July 2nd

Posted on July 2, 2014 by pathfinder

The morning fog is burning off the mountains slowly. Three years ago on this date I can remember rising early to cook bacon and fix  breakfast for the five other people in the house. My husband, his brother and wife would … Continue reading →

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Dear Son

Posted on June 18, 2014 by pathfinder

Dear Son, I haven’t written much lately because, as usual I don’t know what else to say. I despise the world for going on without you. I am infuriated by the fact that people think that by saying your name … Continue reading →

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What the day affords

Posted on April 1, 2014 by pathfinder

Are you able to help the way you feel? My mother used to say “I cannot help the way I feel.” I always thought that she meant that that applied only to her. She was allowed to behave any way … Continue reading →

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In the moment

Posted on March 27, 2014 by pathfinder

We have a new puppy. In August of 2010 we got a puppy. My son had convinced me that we needed a mini Australian Shepherd. One of his friends had a mini and apparently it so impressed my son he … Continue reading →

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The compass

Posted on March 14, 2014 by pathfinder

I sometimes look at old photos and the dates when they were taken and feel a jolt.  It occurs from the toes up like an electric sensation.  Just eleven months, just ten, just nine, just six, three, two, just one … Continue reading →

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another 365 days

Posted on February 7, 2014 by pathfinder

Tuesday was his birthday.  I had been dreading it.  I cannot express why adequately or sort through all the feelings to find out which one fostered such dread.  I think it was the combination of the holidays lining up one … Continue reading →

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